Cotton Clouds Island

I am very unhappy today.

I made the decision to forego Bie Bie as my mother has been nagging me twice daily on Bie Bie’s shedding problem for more than a week. Day by day, the words she’s been using was getting harsher and harsher, to the extent that I imagined my eardrums are oozing with blood and puss. Sickening.

She could not and would not stand the small little furs that fell on her squeaky clean floor, and to show how much she is discontent about the matter, she has taken much trouble to wake up earlier than me everyday and mopped the floor in front of me. 7.00 a.m. in the morning. Then another big hassle again on the time I reach home from work. Another mopping session and with her sulky sullen face, plus never-ending noise pollution coming out from her mouth. 8.00 p.m. in the evening. Today she even mopped the external corridor just for me to see how dissatisfied she is.

I thought I can withstand her, but I guess I can’t. Work has been hectic for sometime, and all I want is a peaceful evening back home and a fresh rejuvenated wake in the following morning. I tried assisting her, so that she would feel that the workload is being shared. Despite that, the direct feedback I had is that I do not know the "proper technique" of mopping the shedded fur off the floor. I helped her on other things, yet it came out to be unappreciated.

She blamed me and the poor puppy on her recent weight-loss and the increase in the rate of electricity usage. She always has her own "unique" theory for living. This is my mother. This is how she get things going her way.

I thought the puppy may soften her heart in the long run. But it didn’t. I was damm wrong.

So this morning I called Lai Huat and told him that I have no choice but to give Bie Bie away. He was very understanding. But the moment he said,"It’s a pity that you are giving Bie Bie away…", I can’t help it but broke down. I feel very sad. Tears welled up in my eyes. I want my puppy to stay, but letting it stay will bring more unfavourable tension in my home.

Maybe it’s fate, Lai Huat found an owner few hours later. He assured me that the new owner, i.e. his colleague is very fond of dogs. He has Bie Bie’s sister as his dear pet. He saw Bie Bie’s photo and is willing to adopt her. I grew more sad. So its’ tonight. Although I know I should be glad that Bie Bie is going to a good samaritan’s house, but my heart is heavy. I cried. Embarassingly in front of my colleague.

So…Bie Bie is going away tonight. And I am going to be as down as ever.

So I guess my mom would be very freakingly happy to have her squeaky clean floor back again.

See pretty flower in full bloom. Well… seems like it’s not an authentic lotus though. The inner petals looks more like pheony

Anyhow, I am happy to see the flower bloomed so beautifully…

Bie Bie and Me.

Three months old and getting naughtier everyday.

Lazy dog.

This is what she does after a hectic play session with the family. Cute or not?

I was late to work.

As usual, I am always late to work at least once a week. I know, I admit. Sometimes I am quite remorseful. But habits are hard to break.

Today I was damm late to work, so had expected my manager to grill me this time. Bingo~ she did, although she told me off in a well-mannered way. I felt so awful. I really felt like crawling up behind her and roll in a ball n stay stagnant there for as long as I can. I know I am wrong. I wanted to apologise but because my lateness is a recurring issue all this while, I guess my apology is worthless.

So I kept quiet and look as apologetic as I could. So memalukan.

If I come in late again the next day… I think I deserve a slap on my face. No doubt.

I longed for a trip badly. I have not travelled since February this year.

I know, friends may say I was silly enough to lose grip of an opportunity to return to Redang Island. Most of my good friends went for a group travel last June. I just didn’t feel like going there prior to that. But now I REGRET… I felt so dull and sparkless. So dull……….

Haha… you may say I envy them going there. I felt so empty the few days they weren’t around, when they are enjoying swimming in the cool clear waters of Redang and frolicking in the sun on the lovely white beach. Yes, I am always crazy for beaches. Friends know me for that.

Anyhow, I have been brooding in the day, always losing myself in daydreams going to strangely new exciting places.

I WANTED TO GO SOMEWHERE NEW~~~

And thank god I am finally going somewhere, sometime in September this year. I will be going to Bangkok with Christina. This is a trip I look forward to after "somebody" fong fei keied on my eagerly awaited trip to Taiwan.

Did i mention Taiwan? Oh… I was about to book for the tickets to fly there when my friend said he could not join. So it was cancelled (sadly enough) and to be postphoned to early next year. Still have high hopes that I will reach there for a nice holiday.

Mother and Bie Bie.

It’s quite eccentric to see them both together. My mother dislike small animals since she was small. The only pet she can tolerate is aquarium fish pets. No noise, no in-depth attention needed and the only fuss is to change aquarium water occasionally.

This time she was very patient with me when I insisted bringing Bie Bie home. Thus, the start of their love-hate relationship….

Bie Bie is closer to Mother compared to the rest of the family. Maybe it’s because she is always at home, and Bie Bie tend to treat Mother as it’s best companion. Everywhere Mother goes, it will follow faithfully alongside my mothers’ footsteps.

Few days back my mother complaint that having a dog at home is quite troublesome and she wanted to send the puppy back. She was quite stern and seemed to be unhappy. Then last night I catch her playing Bie Bie and was laughing madly. She was actually holding to Bie Bie’s hind legs and lift her high up in the air and swing her in clockwise cycle, then went to anti-clockwise for God knows how many rounds.

Poor Bie Bie, when my mother had her fun, she released it down and it quickly ran far far away. Haha…  Bie Bie kept on bumping into the wall while she ran.

Wonder what my mother thinks. But after seeing her play so naughtily with Bie Bie, I guess Bie Bie will stay. For a long, long time.

Mother and Bie Bie.

It’s quite eccentric to see them both together. My mother dislike small animals since she was small. The only pet she can tolerate is aquarium fish pets. No noise, no in-depth attention needed and the only fuss is to change aquarium water occasionally.

This time she was very patient with me when I insisted bringing Bie Bie home. Thus, the start of their love-hate relationship….

Bie Bie is closer to Mother compared to the rest of the family. Maybe it’s because she is always at home, and Bie Bie tend to treat Mother as it’s best companion. Everywhere Mother goes, it will follow faithfully alongside my mothers’ footsteps.

Few days back my mother complaint that having a dog at home is quite troublesome and she wanted to send the puppy back. She was quite stern and seemed to be unhappy. Then last night I catch her playing Bie Bie and was laughing madly. She was actually holding to Bie Bie’s hind legs and lift her high up in the air and swing her in clockwise cycle, then went to anti-clockwise for God knows how many rounds.

Poor Bie Bie, when my mother had her fun, she released it down and it quickly ran far far away. Haha…  Bie Bie kept on bumping into the wall while she ran.

Wonder what my mother thinks. But after seeing her play so naughtily with Bie Bie, I guess Bie Bie will stay. For a long, long time.

Guzheng.

A classical chinese musical instrument commonly featured in Chinese Martial Arts Movies/Dramas.

Equivalent to a western harp.

Ancient Chinese description of the sounds produced by a Guzheng - the sounds of a mildly flowing stream of cool water. How beautiful…

And the most popular question my friends would pop to me,"Why the heck you are so into learning this stuff? *Cough* A Banana (see definition) wouldn’t know how to appreciate anything Chinese???"

Yes, I am a banana, so what? Does it mean I can’t touch and learn my favourite instrument? I believe if I feel like doing something, I make sure I get to do it at least once in my life. So that when it’s time I leave the world, I made sure I wouldn’t regret doing so.

I was glad I took the initiative to learn Guzheng 3 years ago. Before that, I can only listen and enjoy the beautiful music from a radio/cd player/live performance. I enjoyed the music as an audience.

Now, I am proud to say, I play the role as an audience AND performer. And I am so glad.

Definition: Banana - used to sarcastically describe a Chinese that is westernised/ western-educated, and who doesn’t read/speak/write in his/her mother tongue. Yellow skin with a white filling.

Thank God I am still fortunate. I speak fluent Cantonese and moderate Mandarin. Haha….

Oh my…. Very unhappy…

My grandpa came to my house yesterday, and was there to see my puppy before I came home from work. I expect Grandpa, my Sai-Yee and cousin to be delighted to see Bie Bie, but darn, the elderly disapprove it.

The moment I reach home from work, he had asked me to return the dog to Lai Huat. Uh?

Giving all sorts of comments that a dog dirties the house, and how evil I will turn to in the future if my dog falls ill. Bad karma he says. He ruled that I will incur a lot of cost to cure it, and eventually dump it if the bad happens. That’s why I shouldn’t be keeping it any longer.

The most surprising part is that he commented Bie BIe is a bad omen to the family~ Black dog is a no-no. Double huh? Black dog with a white patch on the chest is absurd. Whoa… Why? Because in cantonese, white patch on chest is pronounced as "pak hoong", meaning "white bad luck"…. Oh my God….

Sometimes I don’t understand elderlies.

Bad luck dog? Oh please leave that innocent poor thing alone…….