Cotton Clouds Island

My mom gave me the final ultimatum. Ah Bie had to go.

No matter what, Ah Bie cannot stay in the house anymore. So my boyfriend ("Ah Fei") took the trouble to call his friends, whoever that is kind and nice enough to give a good shelter to my puppy. And he found one, and Ah Bie is set to go off tonight.

I, with heavy heart and relunctant hands, packed everything belonging to my dearie Bie Bie into a box so that it will be ready to be carried off tonight together with Ah Bie to her new house. Her food, her toys, her towel, her medications, her favourite snacks, everything.

Ah Bie isn’t aware that we are sending her away. She is still happily chasing around, playfully spinning around our legs whenever we walked by. She is still the playful little puppy that I grew fond of for these 5 months. I grew to love her very much.

I admit that I am currently angry with my mother and refused to speak to her. I sometimes wonder the words she had said before. She has rushed me to marry so that I may give her grandchildren to play with. I argued with her that with her mood swings and unfit temper, the child will suffer. She claimed she will not be so. Now for sure I really can’t believe her words. She can’t even tolerate a puppy. Then how could she tolerate a growing human toddler, which is far more complicated and tedious to care for?

Ah Fei tried to sooth me by promising he and I will get a puppy together in the future. He wants a Golden Retriever. And to name him/her Bie Bie again. But I don’t want. I felt like I let Bie Bie down, and I felt so remorseful and guilty. I felt like a shameful Bad Owner. I disowned Bie Bie. I felt like I wanna break down and cry.

Ah Fei reassured me again and again, that the new owner is very fond of dogs and will treat my Ah Bie well. She will have plenty of space to run around, good food to eat, lovable company and happy environment to grow big and strong in. But I want to see Ah Bie grow, and I won’t be able to do that anymore.

Tonight is the time for her to go. And I am sure I am going to cry like hell just to release her to another person. So, I just pray hard that Ah Bie will be loved in her new house. Bless my dearie. I will miss you very much, Ah Bie.